Hawk attack
OK... Just got through reading Patrick's "Caroline: Part nineteen"... I have never liked caning... Too much pain, I suppose... But this makes me miss Hawk even more, and miss having the discipline of a Master... I MISS HAWK, DAMMIT!!!!!
Should I break down and call him... Hoping he will take me back?? (Risking the discipline I mentioned before...) Or, should I hold out and not call??? Maybe constantly waiting for Jeff is never going to work...(At least Hawk never had to make any excuses to see me...)
Grrr!! I hate this!!!
Hawk is constantly in my head... R says I talk about him in my sleep, even... Why am I trying to get away? He is an addiction... One I don't even want to quit...
Should I break down and call him... Hoping he will take me back?? (Risking the discipline I mentioned before...) Or, should I hold out and not call??? Maybe constantly waiting for Jeff is never going to work...(At least Hawk never had to make any excuses to see me...)
Grrr!! I hate this!!!
Hawk is constantly in my head... R says I talk about him in my sleep, even... Why am I trying to get away? He is an addiction... One I don't even want to quit...
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I so want to take your advice... But Patrick is right, I know I would end up just as miserable... And Patrick! What an invitation... sooo tempting, but alas, Texas is too far away!! Thanks for the advice... I DO know you are right... Maybe my passion was meant for my art, or finally sitting down to write the stories in my head... who knows...
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